this may be my last post for an indeterminate amount of time as my source of computer-usage is being eliminated. I am going to be living alone once more. I have a job. today I have worked my first double-shift in two years. my legs and body and feet are killing me. I stuffed a [...]
I find it a very sad and disturbing fact when you are able to see your own brother on the street and not be sure if it is him, and just pass on by due to this reality of not being sure if it is, in fact, him. also it is sad that he couldn’t [...]
I saw the pill. I looked at the pill. I tried not taking the pill, and then as it got later, I gave in. I gave in and took the pill. the pill that is now working its way into my system. the pill that will take away my present and my presence and make me [...]
everyone has their secrets. some people have many, or just one; of a grand scale, or just a tiny fragment of reality. sometimes I think, honestly now, that I have none. but that isn’t true at other times, at other times, my mind is wrought with decisions whether to mention this or that or whether [...]
it’s 8a.m. and my head is a bit clearer. three nights ago, I encountered a dangerous medley of naturalism and medical treachery. I fell asleep without my seroquel. [oh dear, what can the matter be . . .] as of the night after, I attempted to lower my dose to 75mg, as recommended by my doctor. [...]
here it is again. a night that comes as a relief from day; hectic journeys across the city, people fluttering about, all diluted by the waxing of the waning moon and too much caffeine. caffeine helps to drag me out of the sleepy haze I can live in hour to hour or day to day; [...]